shadowbird: (Default)
We've had a good day so far. It started out rocky, because we woke up at 8:15 realizing that no one had woken us up at four. This would have been A Cause for Much Rejoicing, except that our alarm clock is one small fuzzy gray monster named Nimbus, and it's not like him to shirk! We realized he hadn't touched his food or water all night, which triggered a search and rescue party. A quick look through the house had us in a panic, because our very vocal baby wasn't making a sound, and after opening every room, closet, and cupboard we still hadn't uncovered him. We began to fear the worst. Cadence and her dad made two separate checks of the porches and the basement with no luck. Nearly in tears, I walked out onto the porch and called him while shaking the bag of treats. He began to mew piteously--our poor baby had gotten outside and hidden under the porch at around midnight when Cadence set the trash out! He'd squeezed himself under the porch and couldn't find his way back out. The power drill made quick work of removing a section of lattice, and we carried him inside and fixed him warm food and gave him lots of love. He's completely fine, but it was a hell of a scare!

Swinging so quickly from terrified to joyful gave me a jolt back into the meaning of the equinox. We strive to achieve balance in activity and rest, in joy and sorrow, in courage and fear. We preach moderation and abstinence. I was reminded how important it is to balance all things, to remember gratitude for what we have, and not just focus on what we lack. I needed that reminder.
 
We went out for coffee and desserts because Dad's birthday is tomorrow and mine is on Thursday. I got a really yummy red velvet cupcake. I forgot to check in on Foursquare, which I'd like to start doing more of to give a little boost to local businesses I like. Hopefully when we move I can be more mindful about that. Then we went to the Dreaming Goddess, which is a metaphysical shop here in Poughkeepsie (again, meant to check in but am not in the habit yet!) and Mom got me a zodiac wheel sticker that I am  using to decorate the Cr-48. (Yes, I got a Cr-48 from Google's pilot program!! It's amazing and I adore it.) I also picked up a magical almanac for the year (one of the Llewellyn ones), which was on sale and which I'm hoping to incorporate into my mindfulness goal by using it to be more aware of things like the moon phase and sign for each day.
 
Speaking of mindfulness, I am working more of that into my daily spiritual practices as well. I exercise every morning at the same time that I pull my tarot card for the day, consciously trying to bring together physical and spiritual mindfulness. I have also (re)started making a checklist every morning of the things I want to get done each day. It's been helpful, in part because we won't have a real daily schedule until we move.
 
Speaking of moving, we are well on our way! Our final approval for the apartment we've decided on should come through by Monday, and we'll be moving on April 1st! Hopefully we'll have jobs lined up by then or shortly thereafter. I'm quite pleased. I love my in-laws, and they've been absolutely wonderful, but it has been a bit draining to be here so long and it'll be good to have our own space again.
 
As I have been doing, I also crafted a list of goals for the season, and here they are: 
 
1. Finish moving to Massachusetts. 
2. Find and maintain gainful employment. 
3. Choose and begin the next writing project.
4. Get the cat neutered.
5. Set up an altar and working space in the new apartment. 
6. Begin a t'ai chi class, or at least regular practice. 
7. Plan the wedding!
 
That's all for now. How's by you?
 
 
 
shadowbird: (Default)
We're camping out at C's parents. Our stuff is in storage in MA. We have no idea when we'll have a permanent place.
◾ Tags:
shadowbird: (Default)
Hello! We are moving out of NYC this Friday! Unless an apartment manifests magically by Tuesday, we will be putting everything in storage and staying with Cadence's folks for a bit. In other news, I have a phone interview on Thursday that I am very excited about. More on that as it progresses.

In other other news, the cat has learned how to play fetch.

That is all.
shadowbird: (other destinations)
I was evicted, or nearly. The drama went down, for sure. I was running scared, and trying to move, and shoving things in boxes, and trying to find a place to leave Cleo. I was dealing with Josh, and I had just been laid off, and I pretty much felt like I'd never be safe again.

Fast forward to today. I have a good job that's not going anywhere. I'm about to move again, this weekend, to a gorgeous apartment of my own, with my fiancee, in a beautiful neighborhood in this wonderful city. Although I haven't gotten fully together financially yet, I'm cleaning things up quickly. My transition has been moving forward by leaps and bounds. I've made new friends and caught up with old ones. I'm learning to live on my own, without my grandmom to hold things together in the family or my dad to give advice. I feel like I have aged ten years in this one.

And on a less philosophical note, I would be really happy if we could stay in the same apartment for, like, five years now. Holy crap, am I tired of moving.
shadowbird: (Paris)
Lots of things. --My name change is coming out in the paper on Wednesday. --I'm 25. --Cadence and I found and applied for and got a beautiful apartment in Bay Ridge, to move in April 15. --Cadence and I are officially engaged. Like, with a ring and all, although it isn't on her finger just yet. Can I just say I love my life? 'Cause I do.
shadowbird: (other destinations)
I haven't been sleeping much lately. I keep being up and good to go at ten and eleven and midnight, and then crashing during the day. I feel like I'm totally behind on everything and I never get anything done. I also get kinda worried because it's really obvious that Cadence and I are on totally different schedules, sleeping and time wise, and I wonder how that's going to intersect when we live together, especially if I change work shifts.

I've been meeting really weird cool new people, it's awesome and fun and I feel like doors are opening all over the place. I just wish I was getting some more sleep. Being more careful around caffeine would probably help, but I'm just tired anyway and then also having caffeine withdrawal when I try and cut it.

I haven't spoken to my father in over a month.

Stop:
deflecting responsibility--doing okay with this one
spending more than $50/wk on food--this has been completely scrapped
avoiding creative projects--I'm working on writing again

Go:
Dragon food plan--I've been eating better, at least. I dunno if you'd call it a plan though
Use Mint effectively and pay bills on time--Mint is kind of a fail, bill paying is something I'm working on
Go back into analysis--I have people to call, but haven't called them
Blog daily--HA.
Name change--My court date for this is Thursday, and I feel good about it.
Start a new physical activity--Was sorta okay on the five rites, hoping to start Seido sometime soon, maybe.

Yeah. . .stagnation. Bleh.
I need some space, it feels like. I want a new space now, so I can really sort out what goes in it. I always prefer to move in February and March, it feels like the time to purge and restructure and move on. I'm reaching for something but I'm not quite sure what.

Resolution update:
shadowbird: (Paris)
Going a little bats. I want to exercise, and check in about name change stuff, and write a story chunk, and also just be left the hell alone for a while. My eyes hurt and my throat is dry and I think some downtime will do me a lot of good.
Also, if I could just have Cadence here, life would be easier. By, like, a lot.
shadowbird: (Paris)
I am posting now.
Some notes:
I have exercised two days in a row! Go me!
I am being good about using the calendar.
I'm working on defining why and when I want the praise that I do, because it's definitely an issue in multiple situations. I'm looking to be a pleaser and then not getting much feedback and feeling neglected.
I am being reasonably good about food, and actually really good about intake! And breakfast!
The weather has been nice here.

Grateful for:
The girlfriend
Late shifts at work
Friends!
My Friday night plans. . . *impish glee*
Remembering to buy shave stuff today
The girlfriend
Having signed up for the Landmark Forum. . . I'm really looking forward to that
Going to Noho this month!
Exercises that feel good
Vitamins that taste good
The girlfriend
shadowbird: (other destinations)
Best day in ages. . .stress free, full of snuggles and love and food and parental approval.
And kissing.
Also, La femme Nikita and The Dark Knight.

◾ Tags:

Profile

shadowbird: (Default)
shadowbird

October 2015

S M T W T F S
    123
45678 910
11121314151617
18192021222324
252627282930 31

Most Popular Tags

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags