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  • Patti Smith wrote the lyrics for "Because the Night" while waiting for her lover to call. If only my frustration were that poignant.
  • I submitted a new poem for publication this week, we'll see if it goes.
  • Still working on the damn succubus story. 
  • Healing from surgery continues apace. Scar tape is annoying. 
  • Work is going well, lots of new projects and exciting things to work on.
  • No progress on the moving to NYC at this exact moment--I have a game plan to start on after some work things settle down.
  • I am going to SO MANY EVENTS this month--seeing Aladdin in the theater, a pagan discussion group meeting/friends out to dinner, a Fleetwood Mac dance party, a Litquake event, a Welcome to Night Vale book release party, a Halloween story reading. . .SO MANY THINGS. Social Charlie is social.
  • I need to pick up my knitting again and finish that enormous scarf before scarf weather hits.
  • I want to create a casual (work-wearable) Cheshire Cat costume. Because Reasons.
How's by you?

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  • Moved! Again! Still in SF, and here's hoping I can stay settled for awhile, because I threw out some boxes. That marks the 14th time in eight years. Far too much. The room is still a mess, but Nimbus and I are getting settled in. It's really cute and relaxed here, and there's not much in the way of expectations between the flatmates. It's been restorative.
  • FoGCon was delightful! I made a lot of new acquaintances, had a lovely time with Mr. K. and his wife, and got my arm signed by Cathrynne Valente. Both panels I was on went very well, I got to wear the shiny red pants, and even got asked on a date. (It'll be Friday.) I was asked to come back and be on panels again next year, which is always a good feeling.
  • One of my friends had a really bad week last week. I did a lot of caretaking. It was kinda heavy, but it seems like things are more evened out for them now.
  • Haven't gotten anything new written, although a few poems are percolating. One about the apartment I lived in in France that should be good if I can get it out. I'm kicking around ways to revamp The Abbey if I take Kit out of it, we'll see how that goes.
  • I'm revamping what a personal practice needs to look like for me. I am a hard polytheist, and I need to own that at this point. Debating how church fits into that. It'll be an interesting direction meeting this week, for sure. I'm also going back through some of my Grailwood notes and materials. Kind of angry that it feels like I'm always in flux with this as with so many other things.
  • I'm turning thirty next week. Working out how I feel about that. I wish I'd created some more permanence by now, but I guess I'm basing the whole idea on what my parents were doing at thirty, and look how most of that turned out.
  • I'd really like a primary relationship in my life at this point. I'm a bit worn down by always being the secondary, even though I have lovely partners. I want someone to do those everyday things with. This might be helped by finding a partner with less of a commute and more of a compatible schedule, too.
  • Work's going pretty well, thankfully. We had one of our remote team members in town for the last 2 weeks, which was super fun.
  • I emailed Dad for his birthday, and he emailed back. Progress!
  • Been catching up on stupid adult things, a bit. I have a consult for surgery next month, so hopefully that ball can start rolling, and I'm working on financial planning and transferring my ID to California and all that jazz.
I think that's all the news here. How's by you?

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Happily moved to Berkeley!
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  • So, I'm in the job interview process for a job I really, really want that would move me across the country. I am excited about the possibility. I am hugely nervous. I am conflicted.
  • I don't know when they'd want me to go, and if I go soon I may not be able to see the Poet in October. Even though we'd arrange another time, that tugs on me and aches. . .I didn't expect him at all, and it's hard to know how to gauge the whole thing. He wrote me a poem, and even in translation it's striking. ( http://dkuzmin.livejournal.com/485016.html ) 
  • I am exhausted beyond belief from being in this city. Even the crazy weekend that was PiCon was more restful than a simple Sunday here.
  • Being in a city that doesn't seem to have a fannish presence is weird and uncomfortable, I'm noticing. 
  • There are people and entities and things I will miss in New York, but I really think I need to leave.
  • How do you know Home when you find it??
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Haven't posted in a while, so here's the skinny.
 
 
--Moving back to NYC next week, staying with friends and then moving into my own place and bringing Nimbus down.
--Cadence and I are taking a break, sorta. 
--Working on the job situation.
--Working on finding UUs and pagans I mesh with in the city.
--Meeting up with Someone on the 4th, which should be interesting.
 
Off to the Quaker retreat for the weekend, see you all Tuesday! Have great weekends and stay safe.
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We are here. Here in a place where I stand tall,where I can be strong and love someone who is strong, where I can walk in the bright sunlight and not be afraid, where I can stretch and breathe and grow and be. We are exhausted, but cheerful and motivated. We have good friends who love us. We have an amazing friend who made the mattress happen for us today so we didn't have to sleep on the floor a second night. That amazing friend comes back tomorrow with equally amazing folks who make up an elite moving and unpacking force. Life is good, people are generally pretty freaking awesome, and the universe is conspiring to shower us with blessings. Hell yeah and hallelujah. It's good to be home.
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We've had a good day so far. It started out rocky, because we woke up at 8:15 realizing that no one had woken us up at four. This would have been A Cause for Much Rejoicing, except that our alarm clock is one small fuzzy gray monster named Nimbus, and it's not like him to shirk! We realized he hadn't touched his food or water all night, which triggered a search and rescue party. A quick look through the house had us in a panic, because our very vocal baby wasn't making a sound, and after opening every room, closet, and cupboard we still hadn't uncovered him. We began to fear the worst. Cadence and her dad made two separate checks of the porches and the basement with no luck. Nearly in tears, I walked out onto the porch and called him while shaking the bag of treats. He began to mew piteously--our poor baby had gotten outside and hidden under the porch at around midnight when Cadence set the trash out! He'd squeezed himself under the porch and couldn't find his way back out. The power drill made quick work of removing a section of lattice, and we carried him inside and fixed him warm food and gave him lots of love. He's completely fine, but it was a hell of a scare!

Swinging so quickly from terrified to joyful gave me a jolt back into the meaning of the equinox. We strive to achieve balance in activity and rest, in joy and sorrow, in courage and fear. We preach moderation and abstinence. I was reminded how important it is to balance all things, to remember gratitude for what we have, and not just focus on what we lack. I needed that reminder.
 
We went out for coffee and desserts because Dad's birthday is tomorrow and mine is on Thursday. I got a really yummy red velvet cupcake. I forgot to check in on Foursquare, which I'd like to start doing more of to give a little boost to local businesses I like. Hopefully when we move I can be more mindful about that. Then we went to the Dreaming Goddess, which is a metaphysical shop here in Poughkeepsie (again, meant to check in but am not in the habit yet!) and Mom got me a zodiac wheel sticker that I am  using to decorate the Cr-48. (Yes, I got a Cr-48 from Google's pilot program!! It's amazing and I adore it.) I also picked up a magical almanac for the year (one of the Llewellyn ones), which was on sale and which I'm hoping to incorporate into my mindfulness goal by using it to be more aware of things like the moon phase and sign for each day.
 
Speaking of mindfulness, I am working more of that into my daily spiritual practices as well. I exercise every morning at the same time that I pull my tarot card for the day, consciously trying to bring together physical and spiritual mindfulness. I have also (re)started making a checklist every morning of the things I want to get done each day. It's been helpful, in part because we won't have a real daily schedule until we move.
 
Speaking of moving, we are well on our way! Our final approval for the apartment we've decided on should come through by Monday, and we'll be moving on April 1st! Hopefully we'll have jobs lined up by then or shortly thereafter. I'm quite pleased. I love my in-laws, and they've been absolutely wonderful, but it has been a bit draining to be here so long and it'll be good to have our own space again.
 
As I have been doing, I also crafted a list of goals for the season, and here they are: 
 
1. Finish moving to Massachusetts. 
2. Find and maintain gainful employment. 
3. Choose and begin the next writing project.
4. Get the cat neutered.
5. Set up an altar and working space in the new apartment. 
6. Begin a t'ai chi class, or at least regular practice. 
7. Plan the wedding!
 
That's all for now. How's by you?
 
 
 
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  • Rabbit Rabbit!
  • Still not moved. Looking at an apartment in Northampton on Thursday, and hunting up jobs. Something will come through. It's got to.
  • I am under 150 pounds for the first time in probably two years! Yay healthy eating and consistent exercise.
  • I am pretty fully switched over to Ubuntu, which seems to be much less taxing for my laptop.
I think that's pretty much it. How's by you?

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For the new year, I decided to make seasonal goals. The first set of goals extends until the Spring Equinox. I have accomplished two of them so far! This week!

  1.  Move to Massachusetts. This is literally half-done, as we have moved our things but not ourselves.
  2.  Get a job in Massachusetts. Still looking. And hoping.
  3.  Submit a poem for publication somewhere.
  4.  Figure out what spiritual path I'm supposed to be following.
Goals three and four? Yeah. I did those in the past five days.
OHAI, I am a rockstar.

That is all.

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We're camping out at C's parents. Our stuff is in storage in MA. We have no idea when we'll have a permanent place.
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Hello! We are moving out of NYC this Friday! Unless an apartment manifests magically by Tuesday, we will be putting everything in storage and staying with Cadence's folks for a bit. In other news, I have a phone interview on Thursday that I am very excited about. More on that as it progresses.

In other other news, the cat has learned how to play fetch.

That is all.
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A December-into-January update:
 
  • Moving plans have not  been finalized, but will hopefully be sorted by the end of this week. I will keep people posted with what I know when I know it. Ditto job situation.
  • Nimbus continues to grow and be adorable and loving and mischievous and fun. Right now, he's in the laundry basket!
  • I have acquired an inhaler to deal with chest tightness and breathing issues, so those should settle out soon.
  • I have rediscovered WoW and its addictiveness.
I have a set of goals for the season (Solstice through Equinox):
  1.  Move to Massachusetts.
  2.  Get a job in Massachusetts.
  3.  Submit a poem for publication somewhere.
  4.  Figure out what spiritual path I'm supposed to be following.
My overarching resolution this year is to be more mindful in everything I'm doing. I feel like 98% of my issues come from not being aware at the time of the impact of things I do (say, financially) or situations that I get myself into. I don't take the bigger picture into account, and I end up sick and broke and depressed. I can't necessarily fix or control all of these things, but by being aware I can be better prepared for anything that comes. Really, what I'm tired of is the "Surprise! You're screwed!" element that keeps popping up. Therefore, setting up extra precautions to deal with surprises.

Here's to a happy, healthy, and enriching 2011!
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I was evicted, or nearly. The drama went down, for sure. I was running scared, and trying to move, and shoving things in boxes, and trying to find a place to leave Cleo. I was dealing with Josh, and I had just been laid off, and I pretty much felt like I'd never be safe again.

Fast forward to today. I have a good job that's not going anywhere. I'm about to move again, this weekend, to a gorgeous apartment of my own, with my fiancee, in a beautiful neighborhood in this wonderful city. Although I haven't gotten fully together financially yet, I'm cleaning things up quickly. My transition has been moving forward by leaps and bounds. I've made new friends and caught up with old ones. I'm learning to live on my own, without my grandmom to hold things together in the family or my dad to give advice. I feel like I have aged ten years in this one.

And on a less philosophical note, I would be really happy if we could stay in the same apartment for, like, five years now. Holy crap, am I tired of moving.
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Lots of things. --My name change is coming out in the paper on Wednesday. --I'm 25. --Cadence and I found and applied for and got a beautiful apartment in Bay Ridge, to move in April 15. --Cadence and I are officially engaged. Like, with a ring and all, although it isn't on her finger just yet. Can I just say I love my life? 'Cause I do.
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I have the worst nausea. And the trembling, and stress hives. I want to stay in bed, which is warm. However, I have to get up and get things packed and organized. Because tomorrow I am moving to NYC. Eek.
I am really going to miss Cleo.
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By which I mean, today I am moving a lot of my stuff, I have packed almost nothing and am Approaching Panic rather like a lion approaches a gazelle. So this, of course, means it is time to shower.
Wish me luck!
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one week down, two weeks to go, then moving downstate for a brief mental health restorative. back up to mhc on august 30th to begin this year's bout of stage crew training. can we say amen. just had a weird flashback to when I moved into buckland. cripes, two years ago.
in other news, i hate mosquitos. why must i be so delicious? why?
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