shadowbird: (trihawk)
This is shitty. I'm so tired of worrying about money, and having that worry affect my sex life, and having that stress affect my mental state, and having my mental state affect my spoon-recovery, which then impedes my ability to work on non-paying things because all the spoons go to paying things to try to alleviate the money worries.

Other people bouncing checks does not help. And neither do my student loans. This is a wanting-to-give-up time. Don't worry, I never actually give up, but this is where I vent about feeling like I need to.
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shadowbird: (other destinations)
Just taking it easy today, trying to figure out what directions I want to be heading in for the upcoming chunk of time.

Things I want more of:
Geeky stuff
Cons
Tech work
Radio?
Writing
Sex
D/s
Cooking
Reading
Knitting
Physical activity

Things I want less of:
Laziness without enjoyment
Inertia
Stagnation
Limitations
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--Not having enough money for essentials, let alone fun stuff.
--Dating.
--Not dating.
--Not being at Arisia.
--Being in debt.
--Wanting to cry all the time.
--My internet radio not working.
--Not getting laid.
shadowbird: (cleo)
Fast. Broken. Yay breakfast.
Um, yeah. I have once again become a protein supplement. So used. So, so used.
I feel. . .oh, hell. Everyone knows I love it.
shadowbird: (bowie)
So today went really well. . .clean house, clean laundry, clean sheets, most of next week's work done, finances in order, groceries bought, and perfect weather = Jica-tastic mood. So I decide to go out. And this, dear readers, is where it goes to hell because I am not a gay man. And I get hit on, exclusively, by gay men. And not the effeminate might-be-a-dyke ones, the nice one-of-the-boys types. Which is flattering, the first four times it happens, because you feel pretty darn cute when one of these amazingly put-together men thinks you're attractive. But, and this is a large problem, I am both the wrong orientation and the wrong gender for those that find me attractive. And women seem to be either afraid of me, not interested, or both, and I have no idea what the hell vibe I'm putting out to make this happen. So I'm home updating LJ.

BLAH.
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